To all my friends, on both sides of the Pacific Ocean (hehe steal a line from erland =)

 

中秋节快乐！

 

有想念新加坡了，想起一句诗“遍插茱萸少一人“。。。祝大家一切都好啊！

 

And yeah, got back my first paper for the English writing seminar...A minus... a bit relieved, but no time to relax because there is another one due this friday... havent written down a single word yet... 

It is 2AM again... but i still could not force myself to sleep. I feel dizzy because I have cried too much. I found myself hard to concentrate despite repeatedly telling myself that everything will be fine. I hope time could elapse faster so that nobody has to suffer the agony of this seemingly endless waiting. I hate not to be in the place where I most want to be. I find myself trying hard to get back on track.

Just repeat this to myself for one more time: everything will be fine.

Yeah, finally done with the first paper... 1500 words on a personal experience...Insanity. 

It has been two weeks since I first saw the beautiful campus of Yale. Indeed, beautilful.  Despite the bucolic courtyard of Vanderbilt Hall, where I live, I have never felt a moment of serenity, though very much I long for. For the first time in my life, I am given the full power to control my own life. "With great power comes great responsibilty." It sounds cliche, but it struck me. Beckoned by a myriad of 2000 courses, I am disoriented. The "shopping period" eventually became a hassle to me, in fact, to everybody. I attended the lecture on Political Philosophy and it intrigued me so much, but I then realized that it would be insane of me to take on two writing intensive courses (as I have already got in the English writing seminar on creative non-fiction). I went to the Russian class too. Well, the teacher was nice and I found it easy to grasp because of my prior knowledge. But then... I kept on asking myself the same question over and over again: why am I learning Russian? It occured to me that I am just like an aimless wanderer who is doing things without having thought about them seriously. Indeed few people in this country speak Russian and rarely do I encounter texts written in Russian. And Russian literature is about rigid adherence to grammar rules, and I guess their great literary values lie more in the content rather than the language. Painful though it was, I gave it up and decided to embark on French from the next semester.

I guess I should not harp on about this to bore you... ok, something interesting now. =) I went for the a cappella audition the her day, after being persuaded by a friend while having dinner. I went in and sang a Chinese folk song, hehe Little Rucksack... Well, judging from the facial expressions of the people, I guess I have done pretty well. I still enjoy singing folk songs, a cathartic experience for me. Oh and I went to the Ballroom Dancing Club too... Not many people have learnt dancing before, so I am considered as being "professional"... I am trying hard to recall the steps I learnt with Chong, but it is hard. A strong sense of nostalgia...

One part of my life that I shall not miss: the food. I think I am becoming more and more frugivorous now. And I just cannot resist the temptation of free ice-cream with peanut toppings and the well-baked chocolate brownies! But well, miraculously, I am not gaining weight... =) Hehe, today I went to a Singapore restaurant with Luyijia... The food was soooo nice!!!

 

Levina called me yesterday and I truly miss Singapore and all my friends who are there. Yeah, I think this time, I am truly away from home and on myself. Studying in the grand Sterling Memorial Library, I reminisce the time of doing revision in Nanyang BS's study hall during the prelim... I think I shall not continue otherwise the watery blanket will completely blur my eyes. Now it is already 0130... Young ( a nice girl from Korea) is studying Chinese and two other suitmates have already slept. I got to read "Shooting the elephant" before I sleep... oh, there is a paper due on Friday...brainstorming brainstorming...

 

To all my dearest friends who happen to read this blog: though we are far apart, we will strive hard together. College is a definitely a place full of opportunities, as well as challenges. We just have to be strong.

 

miss you, love you

Bai